Wo(man) Moments
23 May 2010 Leave a Comment
in GRAVITY Experiment Tags: .357, beautiful, estrogen, God, handgun, mommy, Mother's Day, pastor, Ruger, shoot, target shooting, Vera Bradley
GRAVITY Experiment Day #39
Today’s weight: 145.0
Pounds lost / pounds to go: 5.5 / 9.5
Exercise: Day of rest and I just got done eating popcorn – I’ve been craving it all day;-)
Church was great this morning. Our pastor and his wife started a new sermon series called “Beautiful” – the series is mainly aimed at women and is giving us perspective about what true beauty is and how God sees us. It was reiterated that for women, everything affects everything (oh, so true). I define myself by my appearance, home, career, relationships, and children – when one of those areas isn’t just right, it affects everything else. Instead, I should be viewing me as God views me.
Because the series is so estrogen-ized, they have decided to interject “Man Moments” where they show clips of things being blown up, people getting punched, guns being shot, and guys jumping off and out of things. So funny.
I must admit that I enjoyed the man moment. I’m secure enough in my femininity that I can say without shame that I like to shoot things. Yet another traumatic moment for my children last Mother’s Day when I got a Ruger handgun – imagine Mommy pulling heat out of a flowered bag stuffed with pastel tissue paper (still in the running for Mother-of-the-Year by the way). I’ve always wanted to get my permit to carry a concealed weapon and I got it last year – now if I could find a Vera Bradley bag that had a cute pocket for my .357 
I think it’s really hard for most women to confront their feelings about beauty and self-worth. I think I needed the break just as much as the guys. I know that I struggle with many of the things talked about this morning. Our pastor’s wife offered practical suggestions to make this easier but it’s definitely a process.
During this experiment, it’s been tough not to let a number or missing a workout get me down. As I’ve eased up on myself, I feel like it’s gotten easier and more manageable but I know I’ll have my seasons.
For now, I’ll just go target shooting while I work through my emotions.
Brink of Greatness
17 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
in Random Thoughts Tags: career woman, greatness, mommy
Have you ever felt like you were destined for greatness…if you could just figure out what you are supposed to be great at? Here I sit at the age of 32 — married for nearly 11 years, mother of 3, established career woman — yet I continue to contemplate on a daily basis what I want to be when I grow up…
What I’ve determined is that I should be great at whatever is in front of me and the next opportunity will present itself…then I’ll bust my butt to be great at that (if I deem it worthy my time).
Today, I’m going to be a brilliant author, clinician, and marketer (work on Saturday bites, by the way). Tomorrow, I am going to be an amazing wife and mommy for the entire day with no interruptions. I’ve found that when I combine the two within any 24-hour period, I do a mediocre job at both. Multi-tasking does not work for me in this particular arena.
Maybe greatness doesn’t have to be all that “great” after all.
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